Martes, Setyembre 5, 2017

An open letter for myself
               
                To a person who is always trying her best to makes her parents proud. To a person who is always wants to be happy in front of other people. To a person who is always hiding in mask of happiness and glee. To a person who is tired to everything.
                They always envy this girl for having a peaceful and perfect life. They say that, that girl is gifted. She has friends and other things that make a life perfect. She achieved awards that make her happy. All was perfect but suddenly she remembered there’s no perfect at all.
                There are times that her parents are fighting. She couldn’t do anything. She always pretended that it’s okay but deep inside while her parents are fighting outside she is crying inside the room. Time has passed but her parents are always fighting. She just cry and cry and again.
                And then here comes the school day, in which she needs to pretend again. She needs to be strong to survive. And then here we go again, her “so called friends” around her. She doesn’t know who she would trust. Some of them are just friend when they need but when they get what they need, they will forget her again.
                But even if her life cycle is like that, she always smiles and forgets then walks forward again. She is so tired to everything. She is tired to pressures that she always hears. She is tired to her parents that are always fighting. She is tired to the “fake friends”. She is tired in pleasing everyone but she always gets nothing. She is tired for being her.
                But she remembers, she has a mother who is always there when she has problem. She remembers some of her friends are not bad at all. Her life may not be perfect at all but at least she has these experiences that will help her to survive.
                To the person who is always overthink and cry at night. To the person who is always think that she is not enough. To the person who wrote this. Thank you, for being strong. Thank you, for not giving up. Thank you for being you.  I’m so proud of you.
-Jesica Villanueva 2017